Hey.  So, this is my first blog on wordpress.

God has been working on me and growing me so much in the last few months.  I stand amazed every day at the changes he has made in my life in such a short time.  Although I am trusting God with my heart and the plans for my life, I am truly experiencing growing pains.  God is breaking me down, calling me and allowing me to die to myself so I may pick up my cross to completely and utterly follow him.  He’s opening my eyes to the things I’ve been blinded to, and showing me things about myself that I never saw before.  In all this I must say he’s  absolutely becoming my favorite part of me.  But there’s one thing that through this walk I sometimes forget.  I so often forget that God never told me this road was going to be easy.  I knew picking up my cross was going to cause me to see things in myself that I am completely repulsed by.  I knew that my eyes were going to be open to the flesh, the worldy things of this life that are not of Christ.   I knew that I was going to be disappointed and let down by many things I once put value in.  But, through this I have found myself running full speed ahead to my maker.  The one that makes all things new and never fails me.  I’ve learned that God alone is where my hope rest, where my salvation is found.  Carrying my cross is heavy and painful, but i’ve decided its worth fighting for.  My only inquiry now from Christ comes from one of my favorite JJ Heller song “only love remains”, and thats to “Be gentle with my Jesus, as you tear me apart.”